Hey Travis, a few of your posts have me worried. Do you have a counselor or medical type you can check in with?
It sounds as if you are experiencing a bit of depression, and those can get dangerous. Perhaps the solution is as simple as installing more lights.
You're real talented. Check out any community colleges you can get to with reasonable effort. CCs always need good technicians. The pay is ... adequate ... but those jobs are unusually fulfilling. Although there is some contact with other folks there, most of the work is solitary. I liked that, and I have a feeling you would too.
....it would be easier if i had local friends to hang with.....
Good to hear you are feeling brighter Travis. In my experience most people are actually quite friendly particularly if you share a common interest with them.
You are obviously skilled in IT/IS and woodwork, and are keen on photography and astronomy. Perhaps there are local groups such as a Makers Club where you might meet folk with similar interests.
Walking groups are a good way of getting a bit of exercise and social contact. I think I once mentioned having a dog as a way of getting exercise. They really are great company, relaxing to be with and give uncritical love.
If you don't want the commitment of having your own dog perhaps you could make some cash as a dog walker. One site I found advertised about 12 walkers and they were all charging $15 or more for a half-hour walk - that sounds expensive, but who knows maybe they get it.