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Qdeathstar

#15
Feb 06, 2018, 10:30 pm Last Edit: Feb 06, 2018, 10:31 pm by Qdeathstar
A creaking creeping shadow
stiff against the freezing fog
glares at a tickless watch.

Time has failed him -- all things shall pass.

travis_farmer

just piled a bunch of worthless crap into the furnace. that should piss off the neighbors...

~Travis
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

travis_farmer

just shut down the worthless pile of crap that was sucking the electricity. not a great loss.
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

travis_farmer

My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

Qdeathstar

A creaking creeping shadow
stiff against the freezing fog
glares at a tickless watch.

Time has failed him -- all things shall pass.

JMeller

Just a suggestion -
My neighb & friend has owned his small business for >5yrs.  He has advertised with yp online, and the like, with satisfactory results.  Within the last 2yrs, he started advertising on FB and raved about the referrals.  Again, just a suggestion.

ChrisTenone

Hey Travis, a few of your posts have me worried. Do you have a counselor or medical type you can check in with?

It sounds as if you are experiencing a bit of depression, and those can get dangerous. Perhaps the solution is as simple as installing more lights.


You're real talented. Check out any community colleges you can get to with reasonable effort. CCs always need good technicians. The pay is ... adequate ... but those jobs are unusually fulfilling. Although there is some contact with other folks there, most of the work is solitary. I liked that, and I have a feeling you would too.

tanstaafl

travis_farmer

 :o
so, yesterday really sucked! i am not sure what the trigger was. perhaps boredom.

on a positive note, we have work coming up. probably not today, but coming up. we have a door to replace, as well as a 10 foot long, by 72 inches high window. (my back is crying, just thinking about the window.)

Hey Travis, a few of your posts have me worried. Do you have a counselor or medical type you can check in with?
i have an appointment coming up, i will most assuredly bring it up with him.

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It sounds as if you are experiencing a bit of depression, and those can get dangerous. Perhaps the solution is as simple as installing more lights.
i think it was boredom/frustration/no-natural-light induced. i will try to find solutions for the first two, but the third will have to wait until i either have money for a lamp, or i find something to do outside.

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You're real talented. Check out any community colleges you can get to with reasonable effort. CCs always need good technicians. The pay is ... adequate ... but those jobs are unusually fulfilling. Although there is some contact with other folks there, most of the work is solitary. I liked that, and I have a feeling you would too.
thanks for the compliment (they really do help) :D
i am about 1000 feet, or so, from a local university. i have applied several times for IT/IS related jobs, but without the education documentation proving my knowledge, they want nothing to do with me. all i have is a HS diploma (no idea where it is, but i have one). the nearest CC is about 45 miles or so away. not sure i want to drive that far, in the winter, with my little car. (tends to fish-tail on a single snow flake ;) )

i just got my server back functioning, and re-instated my domain, so at least i have that portion of "normalcy". i am really getting tired of fixing the bridges i keep burning. it is better, having had a good-night sleep. but upon waking up and finding out we have some work coming up is a big help too.

the medication (Abilify, Artane, Celexa) i take is the only thing i have found that works, so i don't dare mess with them. but i think of my depression resistance, using the analogy of a castle, would be like the heavy outer wall. it holds up to the normal level of attacks. but several days of constant attacks (boredom, frustration, lack of good light, etc...) have been known to cause an outer-wall breach. but the attacks stop when i go to sleep (Trazodone), so it gives me time to "rebuild" in the morning. fortunately, the castle's "keep" (the last stand, prevents suicide) has not been breached. as long as i stay on my meds, it stays safe. it would be easier if i had local friends to hang with, but then, i wouldn't really know if i had real friends unless they had a big sign saying so. just one of my quirks i guess.

~Travis

~Travis
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

ardly

....it would be easier if i had local friends to hang with.....
Good to hear you are feeling brighter Travis. In my experience most people are actually quite friendly particularly if you share a common interest with them.

You are obviously skilled in IT/IS and woodwork, and are keen on photography and astronomy. Perhaps there are local groups such as a Makers Club where you might meet folk with similar interests.

Walking groups are a good way of getting a bit of exercise and social contact. I think I once mentioned having a dog as a way of getting exercise. They really are great company, relaxing to be with and give uncritical love.

If you don't want the commitment of having your own dog perhaps you could make some cash as a dog walker. One site I found advertised about 12 walkers and they were all charging $15 or more for a half-hour walk - that sounds expensive, but who knows maybe they get it.


"Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored" - Aldous Huxley

travis_farmer

Good to hear you are feeling brighter Travis. In my experience most people are actually quite friendly particularly if you share a common interest with them.
that involves a bit of a comfort zone i am not too comfortable with. the only person i know that i can relate to is a customer. but as he is the owner/founder of a very popular soil laboratory, i don't think he would have much time available for me. not really the type that would want to just hang out, i don't think.

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You are obviously skilled in IT/IS and woodwork, and are keen on photography and astronomy. Perhaps there are local groups such as a Makers Club where you might meet folk with similar interests.
Hmm, clubs, way too many people...  :o
not true agoraphobia, but close to it.

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Walking groups are a good way of getting a bit of exercise and social contact. I think I once mentioned having a dog as a way of getting exercise. They really are great company, relaxing to be with and give uncritical love.
we have a cat, though that doesn't solve the walking part, it prevents the dog part, and mother won't approve of a dog.

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If you don't want the commitment of having your own dog perhaps you could make some cash as a dog walker. One site I found advertised about 12 walkers and they were all charging $15 or more for a half-hour walk - that sounds expensive, but who knows maybe they get it.
i don't care much for picking up, and carrying around dog crap. so i am rather incompatible with dogs. ;)

i spotted a makers club a while back, but it was filled with kids. i don't really have the patience to deal with kids. besides, i don't think it would be a good idea for a 38 year old man to join an apparently kids club.

i am not just trying to make up excuses. i just have a bunch of personal issues to deal with. ;)

~Travis
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

Qdeathstar

I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't.
A creaking creeping shadow
stiff against the freezing fog
glares at a tickless watch.

Time has failed him -- all things shall pass.

travis_farmer

#26
Feb 07, 2018, 08:27 pm Last Edit: Feb 07, 2018, 09:03 pm by travis_farmer
EDIT: it is easy to type infuriating comments to somebody on the internet. i however will no longer take part in this practice. perhaps the hateful people sending me PMs on my server using a now deleted zombie account, will learn how to GROW UP  >:(

~Travis
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

Qdeathstar

#27
Feb 07, 2018, 10:16 pm Last Edit: Feb 07, 2018, 10:21 pm by Qdeathstar
One can only hope. My comments were not hateful though. If you found them infuriating that's because you're not being honest with yourself or anyone for that matter.

You can. Once you think that way, you will.
A creaking creeping shadow
stiff against the freezing fog
glares at a tickless watch.

Time has failed him -- all things shall pass.

travis_farmer

no, but the crap somebody sent to me through my server was beyond hateful.

~Travis
My GitHub: https://github.com/travisfarmer?tab=repositories
My website is where i organize my thoughts and ideas. feel free to visit it (http://tjfserver.ddns.net/).
My Radio Station: http://travisfarmer.caster.fm/ (if i am on-air)

TomGeorge

Hi mate,

You might need some Vitamin D, the stuff that is produced when you are in sunlight.

I remember seeing a picture many years ago that showed some Russian kids standing in UV light, protecton goggles on ofcourse.
Because they were growing up in an area of the USSR that was near or above the arctic circle and were not getting enough of the good UV for Vitamin D production.

Cabin fever of course is not good either.

Don't be a stranger mate...

I'm off to bed,20C here just after midnight, going for 32C today (Friday).

Just had the Kia serviced, all filters and fluids, goes like the clappers and AC is great now new belts.

G'dnight all...... :smiley-sleep: :smiley-sleep: :smiley-sleep:
Everything runs on smoke, let the smoke out, it stops running....

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