thank you guys for answering!
it works with external power jack , USB and even via VIN pin, but i just can't load any sketches in to it.
no worries i buy a new one it's only 54€. shitty thing is that now is sunday and all shops are closed
it's not worth to start changing some parts by soldering.
lesson learned do not prototype nothing middle of night. i build stepperMotor control with darlingtonArray on my breadbord and accidently i got mixed with wires so motor side power 12V got in control side 5V.